This memorial website was created to remember our dearest Emile de Miranda who was born in South Africa Johannesburg on March 27, 1985 and decided to leave this world and used a weeping willow tree as his launching pad to heaven on February 5, 2006 at the age of almost 21. You will live forever in our memories and hearts. You were the bravest young soul who walked this earth and I will love and miss you forever my beautiful son.
5 February 2011 - Five years ago sometime tonight or in the early hours of the morning I lost Emile to suicide. But I am not going to think about that tonight. The great life he lived should be celebrated. I can still see the blonde haired blue eyed little boy running to me with a huge old smile on his face and his arms wide open. Grabbing me and hugging me with so much love and adoration. That little boy I will never forget.
I remember when you brought your friends home in high school to brag with your cool beautiful mother, being so proud of me. Telling me that they think I am your sister. You made me feel like an angel do you know that? All my articles you always read, telling everyone I was a journalist and showing off with me. That young boy I will never forget.
You became a beautiful independent, responsible and great adult. I miss the times we would walk for miles on the beach and just talk. Or when we hiked in the mountains, adoring nature and talk about deep stuff. We talked so much, you were my best friend. You understood me better than anyone else and still loved me despite of that or like you said because of being who I was. That young man I will never forget.
I wonder sometimes if you didn’t love me too much and expected me to be perfect. Wanting your girlfriends to be just like me, with all my flaws, crazy and all. You were the kindest most wonderful young man I knew and I am so proud you were my son. Everyone loved you Emile, I don’t know why you didn’t see that. But I am not writing this to question you.
You had your reasons for the choice you made. I respect that and I won’t ask questions about it anymore. It has nothing to do with me. If you wanted me to know you would have told me of that I am sure. We all decide for ourselves in this life. And you used that free will for what you thought was right. I hope you have found the nirvana you were seeking but couldn’t find here on earth. Somehow I think you have and of that I am grateful. The wonderful young man who chose me to be his mother I will never forget.
Blessed Be, Namaste and much much Metta my beautiful son.
Rea
Everything happens for a reason,
Even if we can’t see it now...
Treasure every moment you have in this life, anything can happen tomorrow, nothing is for certain. Blessed Be and Namaste!!
Four years since I saw your beautiful face Emile. I can’t believe I have survived this long without you. I still miss and love you so very much my beautiful son. I can’t wait for the day I will see you again. Love you with all my heart for ever and always.
A wonderful beautiful angel was sent by God from heaven to grace my life for almost 21 years.
He suffered on earth to teach me unconditional love, unbearable pain, compassion and being humble before the Almighty Power of God.
He came to teach me that each and every person on earth has a place in the puzzle of life. That nothing happens without God’s hand in it.
He taught me patience and empathy and sympathy for the plight of others.
He showed me that I was stronger than I ever could imagine. That God truly won’t give us a cross we can’t carry to the end.
That special angel was my son Emile, who left me by taking his own life, to force me to go in the deepest darkest places of myself and find the reason for my life here on earth.
He sparkled like a diamond in my life and was allowed by God to return to Heaven to fulfil my life’s destiny.
This is a testament to the joy and love Emile gave me, the smiles and laughter he brought into my life.
The beautiful unconditional love he always showed me, the steadfast way he lived his life, with resolve to make it a great life.
Through pain and suffering he lived to enrich my life.
And the tragic way he left to make me realise my own worth to God. To force me to open my eyes to the way I am suppose to live.
To see the beauty of life and the joy it can bring me by giving of myself and open my heart to the voice of God.
I salute you, Emile, you are my inspiration to be everything I can be and I will do it in your honor.
May my beautiful angel always watch over me, and be there for me when it is my time to go to the other side, to receive me with his arms wide open and be proud for the things I have done.
I thank God my Father for sending that special angel of his and let him be in my life for the time he had here to teach me all.
I love you my beautiful son!!!
You are in my heart forever
I know you are always with me, you did not die, you just went on over to the Other Side.
You are now in the loving Hands of God
Where you will be always safe and loved!
I sent my love to you on the wings of this snow white dove, I know you have peace now.
Emile, I miss you so very much, you will always be the most special person in my life, forever!! I love you so much it hurts. Lovies my son and friend
My beautiful angel, I miss you so very much!!
You are always in my heart and my thoughts.
