Emile de Miranda

I lost my son to suicide in 2012, he was 26.  He was the kindest most loving person I have ever known. I miss you Wesley. I hope you Emile and all the other special angels on here, will all be together in the afterlife. Not a day goes by that I don't think of you. You were my life, my joy. I pray we will all be together again some day. 

Love you so much mum. 

You are my ANGEL my boy and I feel your spirit everyday .. 

I lost my son Jon on January 16, 2015.There is no pain greater.

My nephew Michael "Paul" Anderson took his own life October 11, 2012. He was in a crazy mixed up marriage, his wife had just had him served with divorce papers. Paul was struggling with depression and acted happy to everyone that was around him. He had even called me about a week before and sounded like nothing was wrong, in fact I didn't even know he and his wife has seperated. But the day he was served, he went into his garage locked everything up duct taped all the windows put blankets all around the cracks and turned on both of his 4 wheelers. His wife tried to call him the next morning and got no answer, she then called the police. That's is how they found him laying down on a couch he had in the garage as though he was sound asleep. I have a brother who lost his life in 1982 I know he was waiting with open arms to welcome him in to heaven. There is not a day goes by that I don't think of Paul. He was such a loving man everytime he seen me he gave me one of those bear hugs and a kiss. I love you Paul and my life has not been the same without you. I know you and Carl are taking great care of each other. I love and miss you both so much. And I told you I would watch over your kids, I am. You would be so proud of Shelby she is doing great things. What an amazing girl. I love you and will be talkin to you soon Oh and say Hello to Emile for me without him I wouldn't know how to be able to talk to you. Love you tons Auntie Janie 

My beautiful Son "NAKOA" became an Angel 12-16-2012 at 1 am. I hope you were the one to meet him when he arrived there Emile. I hope he knows I love him more everyday and am trying to be strong for him, his daughters and all of his loved ones. Show him the ways he can show me he is still here in ways beyond the body. I love you Nakoa and will see you soon. Love ya bunches, Momma <3 XO

 dear emile ,my son peter-jphn cherished and loved beyond words could no longer battle the difficulties of his earthly existence and all of my prayers kindly ask that he forgive me for whatever i did not do to keep him in this mortal realm.  To kill himself at age 22 and not allow us to know where his flesh and bones remain has brought me to the edge of a dark and bottomless pit and sent his brother matthew into the psychiatric ward for the 3rd time in two months.  I have taken enormous consolation in your own Mother's strength, wisdom, insight and profound sensitivity with regards to the impossible task of continuing in this life without the very heart of our love.  Please continue to be the great source, however you are doing it, for your Mother's revelations regarding your well-being so that i too may feel what she feels regarding my son's well-being.  Reading her thoughts has consumed over the last few days as my son's Birthday draws near and perhaps one day we will meet face to face and find comfort in an embrace of shared, devastating tragedy which has brought us to pain so few can understand.  Based on what i've read about you my son and you are very much the same and i truly and ardently hope that his destiny has intertwined with yours.  My heart has shattered over and over countless times each hour of every day since he has been gone and  the abandonment and loneliness is nearly killing me.  His brothers tell me to be strong and to know that he is living on in each of them who liked to think of themselves as a trinity.  He deeply cared for his younger brothers and hopefully now he can be cared for by you as an older brother.  Help us pleas in the never-ending hours of unbearable and please when we pass into the realm greet us with the joy which i so ardently hope you have found.  

Damon, Tonda's Son

I also lost my son, Brian, at age 24 to his own hands.  I've read that death is like taking off a shoe that is too tight.  I pray this is true especially for our children that took their own lives.  If we could have only known the distress that was in their mind maybe we could have helped.  I know  they are at peace now.   Happy Birthday Emile. 

I hope every one of our angels knows each other the way that we do.  So when we get to where they are they can introduce us.  Although I think each of us will just know who each angel is.  My promise to all of you is that if I get there first to kiss and hug each of our angels and tell them all how much you miss them and how you can't wait to see them soon.

I KNOW EXACTLY WHAT YOUR MOM IS FEELING. I TOO LOST MY SON JOSHUA, AGE 26 ON APRIL 24, 2006 AT HIS OWN  HANDS. I STILL DON'T HAVE ANY ANSWERS AS TO 'WHY'. IT SOUNDS LIKE YOU MEAN AS MUCH TO YOUR MOM AS JOSHUA DOES TO ME. MY LIFE WILL NEVER BE THE SAME BUT AT LEAST I KNOW HE IS HAPPY NOW AND AT PEACE. ONLY YOU TWO AND GOD KNOWS THE ANSWERS.I HOPE YOU HAVE MET AND BECOME GOOD FRIENDS.UNTIL WE SEE YOU AGAIN, GOD BLESS YOU AND KEEP YOU SAFE IN HIS LOVING ARMS.